Day 31: Following my muse for another day

Work in progress from this morning

Work in progress from this evening

(Effy Wild is hosting another Blog Along as, for reasons you can read about on her blog here, she decided to start over in May and I have decided to continue and follow along as there is much I still wish to write and share about.  So, here goes another day.)



Before I start these are pics of the painting I am currently working on, one from this morning and the other from this evening.  It's amazing the difference in the colors in the pictures as this morning I had natural light and this evening it was not.

I know that yesterday I said I would write about empowerment and how I was thinking about where exactly I am in my Dreams but...

At first I felt guilty about not finishing and posting it because I said I would and it is important for me to establish trust and consistency.  If I was just blowing it off then the guilt would be justified but I am not.  The truth is that I have spent most of the day on creative projects.  I did some cleaning this morning as well and was going to clean some more when I stopped myself.  I often allow myself to get caught up in the little details and use that as a reason to avoid my creativity.  I am working to change that pattern so I stopped myself today because I did clean and really, the rest of it could wait until tomorrow.  My Soul was calling me to paint and the class I'm taking was calling me to creatively play and the bracelet I am making for a gift was calling for me to bead it and I had to answer.  I wanted to answer.

When I answer that call I let my Soul and my Creativity know they are important.  When I answer the call I let my Soul and my Creativity know they are important.  When I answer that call I allow joy and Divine connection into my Life.  So, I answered the call and have been lost joyfully in it today.  Paint on my fingers, projects all over my studio, books bound, stamping and gluing and beading...  It's been wonderful!  So I won't guilt myself into feeling badly about that and instead will allow myself to feel the magick, wonder and joy in that.

I did, however, start to work on the empowerment/where am I in my Dreams post so I will continue to work on it tomorrow, if that is where my Soul leads me and when It is ready, I promise I will post it.

May you be blessed with love and light,
tia

Day 30: Internet troubles

I've been working on my painting for hours, lost in the process, a little tired but not ready to stop the flow. I went to sit down to write up my blog post an hour ago and I had no internet :(  Luckily I do have it on my phone but it's a little time consuming and tedious to write up a long post on it.  So this will be short and sweet.

Aside from my painting I also finished my hand bound hand made journal for the class I'm taking and am excited to do the first weeks lesson in it.  I also cut and glued foam for a cushion for the pallet chair I made.

On the internal from I've been thinking a lot about empowerment today as I had a dream last night that I discussed it with someone.   I've also been thinking about my Dreams and where myself and my "Core Desired Feeling" (Danielle LaPorte) are within them.  More on all of that plus an updated picture of my painting in progress tomorrow.

May you be blessed with love and light,
tia

Day 29: Painting in progress

My painting in progress

For weeks I have felt the call to paint but I have ignored it, which has caused me to feel increasingly...icky, for lack of a better word.  True, I did work on and finish the journal page I posted the other day but that's not the kind of painting I have been called to do.  I have felt drawn to the canvas, I have even seen myself painting over and over in my mind.  Ignoring that call is resistance, and each time I ignored it the resistant energy built up more and more.  As I was walking down the driveway today, thinking about this, I decided that I was going to go inside and just paint because it is my desire to follow my Soul and I knew it would make me feel better to release that energy on to the canvas.  So that is exactly what I did.

I was inspired by a time lapsed YouTube video of Donna Downey painting from a couple of years ago.  This painting is definitely outside of my comfort zone but I am loving the process of it, just letting it flow and doing things in a way I haven't done them before.  It felt good to paint again and I didn't want to stop but there was a blog to do and meditation I'd like to do because I did not take the time to meditate this morning.

I also spent some time today getting my paper and cover ready to bind a journal for Effy Wild's Book of Days class that I am taking.  It has been what feels like a long time since I have made and bound my own journal so I am very excited for that project.  I got as far as putting my signatures together and picking out my cover material and then I couldn't find my waxed linen thread, which I really wanted to use, and I also wanted to paint so I set it aside.  I think I am just going to use Hemp cord for my binding thread because that is what I have and can find.

Inspiration definitely started to flow as I was painting today and there are a number of projects that have been wanting my attention that energy started to flow for again today.  And that feels really good.

May you be blessed with love and light,
tia

Day 14: Derailed and my girls

Last night I was riding the wave of inspired empowerment and, therefore, had grand plans for today.  Meditation, art, moving the art desk I made yesterday out of a pallet into my studio space, redoing my business cards and maybe, if I had enough time, figuring out how to use the web builder function I got with my domain name.  I was feeling energized by my plans.  Of course, I woke up and ended up doing a babysitting favor for someone who was in a bind, so I had to put my plans off until the afternoon.

For some reason I just never recovered my excitement and energy.  I just couldn't get into the groove of things.  My energy felt completely drained and it wasn't the kids.  I've been experiencing energy drains for months.  I have been drinking green juice every day for a few weeks, along with taking vitamins and sometimes it helps in the morning but my energy always seems to drop off in the afternoon.  Some days are worse than others.  I fear I may have an energy vampire, but I digress.  I did, however, make some time for art as I sat down to draw after the late dinner I made.

While my girl that I am drawing is beautiful so far, there's something I am just not happy with.  All of y girls, with the exception of one, seem to have a very similar sadness to their faces.  I'm trying to fine tune her face, changing her lips to get a hint of a smile, adjusting and redoing her eyes, but so far that glimmer of happiness is missing.  I try to allow my girls to come through however they are meant to but I also want to bring ore magick, more joy, more mystery and fantasy in my drawings and my art.  But I wonder, perhaps their faces are a message to me, as much of my art is.  Even the emotion on their faces must serve to remind me of something about myself or they are reflecting something to me.  Maybe they are telling me that it might be beneficial to allow more joy into my life and then my girls will reflect it.

As I mentioned, there was one girl I did who had a playful look on her face, even the hint of a smirk, which is unusual.  I started a painting with her on it at the end of last year/beginning of this year, but I haven't touched her since.  I also put her on a t-shirt, that I did finish, but it was a grey t-shirt and the grey really shows through the painted colors so it is starting to fade already.  The girl has this look on her face because it is all about letting go.  That's the idea I had when she came through, let it all go.  I think that the topic of "letting go" is also the reason why the painting was never finished.  And the part of the message of that just might be that when we let go, the pressure eases up and the playfulness has room to grow.  I think it just might be time to pay her another visit.

I am off to continue working on my girl, I'll be sure to post pictures when she's finished.

May you be blessed with love and light,
tia